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I really like the sunshine. when the sky stops being a perpetual never-ending lifeless grey, and allows the sky to glow in a dark sky-blue and the sun fleet through the trees, have the leaves rustle, the birds begin chirping and lizards crawl out to bathe in the sun. I think such is so healing. You feel overwhelmed and anxious and sad all the time because it's cold and it is winter-depression. the sun will be back, and so will life in the world around. you are ok.
I like drinking water, even if i don't do so enough. (go drink some water)
I love putting too much sugar in my coffee, i love putting oat milk in my coffee, but low fat milk is also good, or soymilk.
I love common eurasian blackbirds. i love owls. i love dragons. i love fantasy books. i love biology. i love to read, even if i also don't do it enough.
I love creating music, playing guitar, or the lyre or the ocarina, even if i don't know what i am doing.
I love to create and i love to engage with the world. It can feel like world doesn't seem to like me much, but everyone, everything, is a whole, its a system, its a complex functioning, it cannot hate, and it certainly doesn't have anything against you.
I am a completely normal average person, sure i have my traits that make me unique, life experiences that makes me different in my own ways, but just like everyone else too. I don't believe that we all, humans, nature, life on eath, are really so different. a big issue of our world is how "us vs. them" we seem to think, hell, its often just "me vs. everything else". this hyperindividuality is scary, lonely, and isolating, it fills one with hate and agony and mental tortures.
the world is a lovely place, it is filled with both love and suffering.
with both endless connection and lonliness.
I love feeling free, feeling connected with others, i love overcoming struggles and bad habits and cumpulsive behaviours with effort and the love of my closest friends.
i love having a space, this one, where i can love.
I also love trying new things, learning things, failing at things. i love my characters, I love my own art, I love how endless the world seems to be. I love the amount of people who care about climate change and animal rights, no matter how bad the govournments may be. I love my life, no matter how much pain it has given me. i love how much i love the world. I love that i gave kindness to those who didn't deserve it. I hope i can be kinder, less anxious, more independant, and happier in the future, but I haven't "failed life" if I don't succeed enough yet. one step at a time.
I also love minecraft, the gentle freedom it gives me, for when the sky is grey and the weather grim, i can have my sunny day elsewhere. I love my family and how they are safe and sound and illness-free and alive. I know they can make you feel lonely and hurt, but they do love you even if it doesn't feel like it, remember that they could have been lost. Remember you could have been lost too.
slow down, breathe in, breathe out, simply be. it may be corny, but you're allowed to be. you're allowed to exist without judgement, without worrying about doing "the right thing" at all times. just close your eyes, and picture the sea, the forest, a waterfall, or birds all around.